December 28, 2011

Two Hands, One Heart

I've been trying to decide what to share on my blog for the last few days.  I try to keep things positive here and for my family's privacy I don't share certain things that we are going though and I'm sure you can understand that.  But my world fell apart in November and I have been trying to keep the pieces pulled together.  That's all I can say without going into details.  I'm so thankful for my sister and husband who have been there to help me though this.  I'm so thankful for my mom who lets me cry with her on the phone.  I wish she were here, nothing beats having a hug from your mom. I'm so thankful for my dear friends who listen with kind and caring hearts as I share my heartbreak.  And there has been so much brokenness over the last month. 

I took a much needed break last week.  I should have done that sooner, but I didn't realize how hard everything had been on me and how it was effecting my business.

You see, I have two hands and one heart and they have to work together.

For a while, they weren't.

I'm doing better, thanks to my family and some serious self-care over the last week.

If I have upset you because of a lack of communication, please forgive me. 
I've done all I could over the last few weeks while trying to take care of my family. 
I hope you'll understand and move forward with me.

At this point, that is all I can do - move ahead.  One step at a time.

29 comments:

Off the Beadin' Path said...

Heather, I'm so sorry to hear that you're experiencing a difficult struggle. You only have one heart, but it's a very large and giving heart and I hope it will serve you well during this challenging time. Sending you love and support!

Roberta said...

There are many of us out here who are having a hard time. It isn't all happy, happy, mistletoe etc.

I found it hard to even read blogs this last month.

I hope things get better for you.

Marie Cramp said...

We are here with you and for you. Take your time but don't do too much at once. We love you and are there if you need us.
Have a Happy New Year!!

Alice said...

Heather,

I'm so sorry to hear you are going through a difficult time. I pray for strength to get you through, and for peace, and for love and understanding to surround you as you move forward.

Take care!

Nancy Markosky said...

I'm sorry too that you are going through a difficult time and yes, it is very good to have family and friends during hard times. Its hard to lean on people and let them help but its usually just what we need. This time of year adds lots of extra stress too- not always so joyful. I'll be thinking of you and saying a prayer for you. :)

Norma's Clay said...

I'm sorry you're going thru tough times. The truth is it brings tears to my eyes because I understand the feeling. This whole year there was one thing after another and there are still coming. But I feel you're being strong. We should definetly be grateful of the people around us that keep us going. I know some people say what doesn't break you makes you stronger; but it changes you in different ways. For now I'll just keep going, smiling whenever I can.

char said...

There seems to be many who are going through heartbreak at this time. I hope you find your way through yours and find the sunshine again.

Elisabeth said...

I am sorry you are having a hard time. Thanks for all you do to nurture and support others - and let us know what we can do to help and nurture YOU! ~Elisabeth

Spirited Earth said...

i'm so sorry to hear you are going thru difficult times..i do hope the new year will bring some peace for you and your family

Copper Diem said...

Sorry to hear that :(

Hang in there

Linda Landig said...

Life can be very hard at times - so heartbreaking. I'm glad your husband, mom and friends are there for you. You may have to step back more often for self-care. Sending warm thoughts for a better 2012.

Molly Alexander said...

Heather, whatever it is that you are going through, just know that you have so many people praying for you, ready to support you in whatever you need, including me. Hopefully you are able to take the time you need to heal. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you in the meantime.

quickcer said...

Heather-I felt something might be going on in your life and I have been praying for you. Life can take us on hard journeys and it sometimes takes years to understand why. Just try to take it one day at a time. Be kind to yourself. Know you have friends out here who care for you. I will keep you in my prayers.

maryharding said...

Heather, I am so sorry to learn of your difficult time. You are in my thoughts and please know you are deeply cared for and treasured by not only me but this wonderful beading community you have been inspiring and nuturing over the years. I hope you will take time for yourself to heal. And that the sun shines again for you soon.

Pine Ridge Treasures said...

Heather - Please take care of yourself! I am praying for you.

Kathleen Lange Klik said...

So sorry to hear that you are sad. Take care of yourself. Wishing you peace, love and happiness in the new year.

Softflexgirl said...

This made my heart hurt for you. Although I know you have plenty of people to lean on, if you need one more, count me in.

TesoriTrovati said...

two hands
one heart

your two hands have nurtured and encouraged, lifted others up and created marvelous things. your one heart has loved and might be cracked but that doesn't mean it can't be mended and grow in new directions. you are strong and kind and generous. you give of your inspiration willingly and inspire others to discovering their own greatness. we want the same for you. there is a whole great big community out here who cares about you and is ready to be there for you. all you need to do is ask. and if all you can ask for right now is understanding and prayers, well, then we are the ones to do it.

i wish i were there with you right now. i would give you a big hug and i would let you just sit and be.

you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers daily.

find your 'something good' today, miss heather. today and every day. and i promise you that it will get better and easier to find those 'something goods'.

xox
erin

Jo said...

Heather, I'm so sorry that you're going through such a hard time, but I'm glad that you've got such good people around you in real life. You've got alot of people thinking of you and supporting you out here in blogland too. Jx

Rebecca said...

So sorry to hear you are going through such a tough time. You'll be in my heart and thoughts. I hope you've managed to hove a little peace and space for yourself these holidays.

Mellisa said...

I'm sorry to hear you're going through difficult times...it's good to hear you have so much support from loved ones at home and of course we're all here supporting you in blogland as well. I hope you're healthy and safe.

Anonymous said...

dear heather: sorry to hear that you are having a struggle or as they say in a program I am in " an unexpected growth experience." I will say a prayer for you. Also, plaese say a prayer for Salvage Sparrow, the lovly artist you introduced me to several months ago, she was in a horrid car wreck that took the life of her beloved mother. What a journey we all have. J. H.

Gina Chalfant said...

Heather, I am sorry to hear of your struggles and heartbreak. The ripples sent forth by you sharing your talent has inspired so many and we are all standing with you. I hope that you can feel that. I am happy that you have people close to support you. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts.

swopemelmel said...

Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.

Albus Dumbledore

Heather I will be praying that the lights in your life grow brighter and stronger everyday. Much love and God bless, Melanie

mary s said...

so sorry you are having a sad time - you are an inspiration to many with your talent, creativity, generosity, kindness and wisdom.

i hope you are rounding the corner to a place of recovery and new beginning. i will keep you in my thoughts and best wishes.

Here Bead Dragons said...

been a bit under the weather so just caught up with your blog. Your first responsibility is you and your family. hope this is year is better than last year.
cryssT

Aquariart said...

Hang on to your heart, don't let anyone tarnish it, polish it every day with the words of love you receive from all of us. A wise someone told me that "Pain" ( in any form) is a reminder that we are still alive and an opportunity to allow others to give us what we can't give ourselves. I am sending a hug, close your eyes and feel the love.

Cherrie Fick of En La Lumie're said...

Miss Heather, You are a huge part of this community and the inspiration you have given is to be admired. I started adding you to my prayer list a bit ago. Not sure why, but you were there. This is a difficult time for many of us right now. Just be surrounded by your family and friends. Everyone else will be there when you are ready.

Charm Bracelets said...

When you string these hearts they may make a beautiful gift for your valentine...very pretty inputs for a neck piece or bracelet.