June 24, 2011
I'm trying to let go of things that are weighing me down. Sorting through what is important and what's holding me back. My biggest goal right now is trying to eliminate stress and cut out things that I don't need to do any longer. I am way too busy and I hate it. Really, really hate it. The workaholic in me has received a smack down from the mother in me - the one that is telling me to take care of myself first or I won't be able to take care of anything else. Am I the only one that has these crazy talks with myself?
There is also the girl in me who wants to enjoy summer and find balance between work and family. I want to sip ice tea from a glass jar and eat juicy watermelon, corn on the cob and big red tomatoes hand plucked from the farmer's market. I want to string fairy lights in my backyard, pull out a table and dine alfresco. There is the girl in me that wants to spend the end of the day sitting in a pool. And listen to cicadas sing their summer song at night. I want to lay my head down at night on a cool crisp pillow and not worry about tomorrow but close my eyes and think of how wonderful today was. I want to be carefree and happy-go-lucky. I want things simpler.
How do I get from where my life is to where I want it to be? I wish I knew an easy answer for that. I guess it's mostly just a matter of being in the moment and letting go.