February 14, 2012

Broken

I can't figure out why I'm so embarrassed about being injured, so I thought I would share it here and get over it! I am like a crippled bird at the moment.  Hobbling around on knees that aren't working.  I'm waiting to see a specialist, until then I have a cane, pain medicine and a water exercise classes to help the healing process.  The cane makes me feel like some old, eccentric comic book character.  I have never left the house with it. I will find out after the Bead Cruise if surgery is the next step.  Which I'm really hoping it isn't.

I'm suppose to avoid stairs, so we have my studio on the main floor, in a smaller space than my super studio that I was working on fixing up.  Which makes me a little bummed.  So instead of being bummed, I thought I would share where I am currently creating.  After all, it is a lovely space.

Thankfully my hands still work and I have been whipping out beads like nobodies business.  Well, like my business! It is a productive space.  I like the natural light and being surrounded by inspiring things. This is the clay table.  All my clay is stored in the metal file cabinets.  My tools are on a wheeled metal shelf that I covered with some silk fabric to hide the mess!  Jess works on the other table, where he paints, sands and helps me package up orders.

During my injury I've done two trunk shows, three classes and I'm now on the final countdown getting ready for the Bead Cruise.  And I'm worried about the cruise.  I don't want to hobble around and I don't want to rent a scooter.  That just makes me feel like an old lady and I'm not there yet!  My mom and I have this discussion almost daily.  I just want my legs to work right. I want my body to cooperate with me. 

Healing is never fun.  It's not fun to slow down.  I hate not being able to do what I want to do.  So I will focus on what I can do and I will accept help when I really want to do everything on my own.  And I will be okay with not being a super woman, at least for a little while.

(The two plants on the left are my Valentine gift from Jess.  He is such a sweetie.)

23 comments:

Roberta said...

I am sorry you are hurting. I know what you mean though. We are supposed to leave for Tucson this Saturday and my hip is killing me! I do so want to hike in the desert but now, who knows.

getting old S-U-C-K-S!!!!!!!!!!

Spirited Earth said...

soo sorry you're having trouble with your knees..it's not only painfull but so annoyijng.
since a bad fall, several years ago, i've experienced a lot of knee issues.. my sympathies are with you.

June said...

Heather, if you need to use a scooter on the cruise, we won't mind! I feel your pain. I put up with my knees for years before I had them both replaced a few years ago. Life changing.

Janie said...

Heather, I always read your blog but never post. Sorry you are hurting. I am writing to let you know that I understand...because I'm going thru the same thing! With me it's hips and back and arthritis. I am trying to keep up the same attitude as you. Give yourself a pat on the back! You've gotten an amazing amount done for what you are going through. Hang in there...

Marie Cramp said...

My mother-in-law had knee replacement surgery and it helped a lot! She has other issues, and for her the healing from the surgery did not last because her knee filled with fluid again. The recovery was amazingly fast though! She was in so much pain before, the pain actually lessened right away! It was less painful for her to walk around the day after the surgery than the way she was walking around before.
There is hope! I will keep you in my prayers <3

Rebecca said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your injury Heather. My partner had a broken ankle last year and it seriously sucks! I hope you can manage the cruise and I have no doubt you will have many helpers on hand. Have been playing around with polymer today and thought of you. And how very meagre my creations will be (currently cooking away in the oven :-)) are compared to yours but how much I have enjoyed playing around this afternoon! You'll be in my thoughts and I hope you heal soon. The plants from your sweet Jess are beautiful! I am sure they will make you smile often.

Lupe Meter said...

So sorry, about your injury. Last year, I had knee surgery, so I know a little about leaning on others to get things done. It is hard not being the super woman we all strive for. Hang in there! I will be praying for a quick recovery. And can't wait to see your new creations!

Alice said...

I'm so sorry you have an injury that is curtailing your activities. But your positive outlook will keep you going. I pray for a solution to your pain--and soon!

Alice said...

P.S. If you do have to use a scooter on the cruise, maybe you can give rides and charge a fee for the fun. :)

Lorelei Eurto said...

I hope you heal quickly and that you are back up and "running" soon!!! xo Thinking of you!
Your studio space definitely is inspiring! I love that big painting on the wall and the one of the Fox! :)

sasha + max studio said...

Take care, Heather, I hope that you are on the mend very soon - sounds like a very tricky situation, always best to listen to the experts... Love your mini studio :) Vicki

CraftyHope said...

I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling down both physically and emotionally. Hopefully you'll get some answers and the help you need to heal. And, hopefully it's SOON! I hate knowing that you're suffering. Sending healing vibes and positive thoughts your way.

Your temporary space is quite inviting and I know it has to be comforting that at least you can still work. :) {HUGS}

SummersStudio said...

Super woman really kind of stinks. You, know, it has set up this whole expectation that if we put out minds to it we can do just anything at all. And if we don't do just everything that we want then it is somehow our failing. Bollocks! Please do not be feeling somehow you have 'failed' in those expectations. We are all just who we are with our own limitations and importantly our own beautiful unique talents. I am wishing you much healing and light to get you through this.

quickcer said...

Sorry you are hurting. It is hard when you are younger--when you get to be my age, pain is part of life. I think you will have more fun on the cruise if you get the scooter. It will help with the pain and you can concentrate on your classes and having fun. I will keep you in my prayers. Love your new studio space. And it was sweet of Jess to give you plants. He's a good man.

char said...

Heather, keep on smiling, it will make you feel better if only in your mind...I battle the knee problem myself so I know what you are going through. Have fun on the cruise, but take care of yourself first and foremost, Happy Beading.

maryharding said...

Heather I am so sorry to hear that you are hurting and feeling like you are less. I am sure that is not how others see you. I hope you heal fast and I am glad you are focusing on what you can do right now. I am sending you lots of healing thoughts.

DWhiteCreations said...

dont be embarrassed, i know it's easier said than done:). i have a chronic illness and hate to have to admit it. my specialist says it's really common for folks to not want to talk about it, admit we aren't "normal". i try to take it one day at a time and always, always look on the bright side...i love your work

Cece said...

What a beautiful studio space to create in. Often times slowing down can teach many lesson too. Try not to look at the possible use of a scooter as a negative, but perhaps as just another tool to get the job done on the path to wellness.

Rosanne said...

You will always be a Wonder Woman to me! Get the chair, we can all have lots of fun with it.

Heather Powers said...

Your words have given me strength today and I thank each one of you who offered support!

Skye said...

Set your 'I'm not old yet' pride aside and rent that scooter! Trust me, you'd much rather be free to move around and keep up with everything and everyone and ENJOY the experience, than come out of it miserable and moping about how much you didn't get to do or felt like you were slowing things down. Rent the scooter and take a bit of time to figure out the controls, then have fun with it ;)

TesoriTrovati said...

Sweet Miss Heather, sorry that I missed this yesterday. I think that you need to feel like part of the group on the ship, and if a scooter will get you there, then that is the best way to go. I know that you will have fun no matter what, but worrying about how to get to the next venue would dampen your spirit. Maybe you can bedazzle it while you have it? That would make if feel more fun! ;-)

Thinking of you!
Enjoy the day.
Erin

P.S. Your studio space looks so inviting. And it is great the Jess is helping you. He is marvelous. You can tell him I said so ;-)

Shaiha said...

I am so sorry. We are going thru the same thing here in our house except it is my husband. He hates going out with his cane.